Give Me Five!

Are we crazy? I know many have thought that we might be when we told them we were expecting another little one. We already have four other healthy, beautiful, amazing children (okay I’m a little biased) that are still fairly young and close in age. After all, isn’t four kids the new Mormon eight? But for some reason, for us it was the right thing to do. As much as I wanted to be done having kids after Jenna, I couldn’t make myself give things away or completely close that door. I determined that we couldn’t make an unbiased decision until Jenna was at least two years old.

As we approached Jenna’s second birthday in February, I agonized over whether we should have another baby or not. I made my list of pros and cons, and clearly the cons outweighed the pros on my chart, but I couldn’t help but give more weight to the spiritual impression I had that there was someone else who belonged with us.

The confirmation came when Corey and I were in Hawaii at the end of March. Until then he had been leaving the decision up to me with the commitment to support whatever I decided. Over dinner our first night there, he finally asked, “Do you want to know what I think?”  He surprised me by saying that he thought “we need to have another one.” That was all I needed…suddenly it felt right. It must have been meant to be because we were pregnant in April!